Tuesday, June 02, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
The question posed in the story is something I believe everyone can relate to. When we are born, is it already determined for us who we will become, or is it our choices and experiences that shape us? There was a point in my life where I was an advid church goer and firm believer in the Christian faith. My faith brought me out to the middle of nowhere Minnesota because I felt as though God was telling me to move there. I am no longer a devout Christian, but I still wonder about who I am meant to be and if the choices I am making for myself right now are the "right" choices.
I went through a good portion of my late teens and early twenties not sure about what I wanted to do in life. I've tried my hand at a lot of things; DJ, bartender, insurance salesman, retail monkey, etc. I came to realize that I have a lot of stories to tell and that I'm pretty good at it. So I decided to become a writer and have been pursuing that full time for the last three years or so. I moved here to Southern California to be closer to the entertainment industry, but have yet to get my foot in the entertainment industry's door. I have however had two published works come out since I've been out here, one of which I wrote while here and the other while I was still in San Francisco, with more to come next year.
I haven't been writing all that much as of late due to a combination of fatigue, laziness and a feeling of going through the motions. I don't believe in writing only when inspiration strikes, I think that's a cop out. I suppose that's why I'm flexing my muscles again on this here blog and trying to work off some of that writer's rust. I need to get back into the daily regimen I once had and hopefully start producing quality stories again.
I don't know the answer to the question of whether or not we are born into who we are or become who we are. I like to believe that we have free will. I like to believe that if I try hard enough to accomplish something, I will. At the very least I hope to gain enough knoweldge to succeed the next time around. But talk of success is nice, succeeding is much more gratifying.
"At a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fates. That's the world's greatest lie. Whoever you are, or whatever it is that you do, when you really want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve it."
-The Alchemist, Paolo Coelho
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
There are times that I wish life situations were as simple as black and white, they rarely are. However, it makes me appreciate the simple pleasures that dip in and out of your life. A smile exchanged between two strangers with no promises of anything more than a mutual greeting. Holding hands with someone who makes you feel comfortable. A cup of good coffee from a cafe where everyone greets you by name. Megatron. Waking up to a text message from someone who just wanted to say hello because they were thinking about you. Inspiration. A good inside joke that never seems to get old. A new favorite song.
I also realize it's the trying times that make you who you are in life. We all go through our share of growing pains, be it in our professional, romantic, or creative lives. I suppose you can say I'm going through my share of growing pains right now. Things are hardly too difficult for me to handle, my own selfishness just wishes things were a bit easier. Easy is relative though, isn't it? Easy is what we make of a situation. I've never been one to shy away from a challenge and no where inside of me do I intend to start. Black. White. Easy. Difficult. Life. I won't be seduced by ease. I won't be defeated by adversity.